FR 04/28/09 - Failed Compliance Test, Still Kissed the Girl

Back at it like a crack addict. I'm back in NYC, met up with my good friend Raven and we hit some bars. It's unseasonably warm, so the bars are not that packed (and it's a weekday). Eventually end up at this bar that has open bar every Tuesday, so we know there will be a crowd. Harsh blowouts, polite exits, harsh blowout again! Ouch, I wanted to go home. Raven calls me out on being an ego protecting little bitch, tells me this is the time to push yourself. I thought of this quote:

"Character is not made of sunshine and roses. Like steel, it is forged in fire, between the hammer and the anvil." - Chin-Ning Chu

At this very moment, I spotted a tall skinny sexy red head with long wavy hair (I actually had made eye contact with her 10 minutes ago) and just started walking.

Martyr - You are cute as hell. Who are you!?
TallSexyRedhead - I'm TallSexyRedhead

Martyr - You cannot come out looking like this, guys are going to come over and hit on you day and night
TallSexyRedhead - Well, you're the first tonight
Martyr - (Ignoring that comment) Why would you do this? What do you want from me? What are you out here for?

The first two questions were just banter and said more like a statement, and the third one is the actual question to move the conversation forward.

We talk some more about what she is up to, I drop in that this is my first time out since I came back from LA. She's there for a 21st b-day party and free drinks

This is where the verbal part gets a little fuzzy because we jumped around a lot of different topics. She said she's been in New York for 4 years, I tell her I can definitely tell. She says she's about to graduate, I guess that she is graduating from F.I.T., made a good guess, lucky me. I tell her I wanted to be a professional basketball player when I was 14 and tell her about how I still play in tournaments and leagues and I talk about that. She talks about soccer. I tell her I could definitely take her (creating the her and I dynamic). I tell her if she were blond I would think she was be like an LA girl - laid back, fun, etc. I talk about my recent trip and career aspirations.

Thinking back, I can't believe i went through all those topics.

At one point in there somewhere, we move to the bar. I tried to lead her by the hand, but she half ass complied. She held my hand in a limp way, and then dropped her hand altogether. This shit used to phase me a lot, but no longer. Now I just kept progressing the interaction. I can't quite explain why, but I think this actually spiked attraction.

They had glow sticks hanging, I wanted to grab one and give it to her. So I grabbed one, and told her I had a gift for her. Haha.

We chat more and she asks me who I came here with. I didn't realize at the time, but she's almost thinking logistically, which means i should already have been thinking logistically at this point. She tells me she should spend some time with the birthday girl, and that I should grab my friend and join them. I respond playfully:

Martyr - Oh, so our first date is over. That was fun.
TallSexyRedHead - No it isn't! Not unless we allow it to be.
Martyr - It's fine, we can go on a second date in 10 minutes or so.

I go in to kiss her on the lips. This was one of the rare times (I don't recall another one) where I went for it and a girl kissed me back, but it wasn't a makeout. I end the kiss and tell her we're saving some for our second date.

Not getting the makeout affected my state. She may have even noticed the sub-communications related to it. I became a little bitch, and didn't reapproach. I didn't even get her number (WTF!?)

Yea, that fuckin ego needs to be destroyed.

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Things I did that I had never done:
1) Not giving a shit when she didn't hold my hand

Things I did well
1) A lot of conversational topics related to her, me, or her and I
2) Discarded topics of conversation I didn't like

Things I could have done better
1) Not give a shit that I didn't get a makeout
2) Think logistically (pull, pull, pull!)
3) Not give a fuck and go back in set
4) Grab her phone number early on